Let's get real.

No makeup, bad lighting, fuzzy.... real.

Are you tired, like I am of following fashion blogs that feature skinny minnies and clothing you can't fit into let alone look good in?  ME TOO!

Don't get me wrong, those women are beautiful and have crazy good style.  They're probably really cool people too.  What I'm feeling lately though, is that it's time to get real.  

I LOVE fashion.  I am a shopaholic-at least I would be if my allowance let me!  I really love fashion blogs, and seeing what people are wearing, the new style, etc.  But for me those looks aren't a regular thing.  It's not a real basis for me.  I wish!  But my life isn't cut out that way.

I've tried to be a fashion blogger, not very successfully but there's a reason for that.  I am not a size 2.  I'm also not a size 4 or a size 6.  I'm usually a size 8 or 10 which-guess what-is AVERAGE!  So why do I feel so fat and ugly all the time?  Because I've been conditioned to feel that I need to be a size 2 to be worth something, to be beautiful.  

Wonder why you feel so bad about yourself all the time?  It's because we have this unrealistic expectation that we SHOULD be smaller.  Why can't we just be what we are?  I have a problem with eating junk food.  I'm working on it!  I'm also trying to change the way I think from "I need to be skinny" to "I need to be healthy and take care of myself."

Why else have I not succeeded as a fashion blogger? Because I don't have a photographer with me at all times.  I don't have fancy lighting or hours in a day to go out and get the best shot.  I have a part-time job, I go to school one night a week, I have my small business on the side, not to mention a husband, families and friends!  I don't have time to look awesome ALL the time.

I find that at times when I go out, my mood is reflected by how I feel about my outfit.  If I don't feel comfortable or stylish in something, I will probably not be in a great mood and feel ugly and fat.  

I have refused to wear runners on walks with my husband because runners are not stylish.  Whaaat?

Where am I going with this?  What a good question.  I'm not quite sure myself EXCEPT that I do have an idea.

I want to attempt a REAL fashion blog.  A real life fashion blog.  Even outfits I feel fat and ugly in, but also ones I'm proud of and feel good in.  I am a curvy girl, and I hate my hips-but why?  I should embrace the curve and focus more on my inner beauty and what makes me unique on the inside instead of on the outside.  

I want to spend less time worrying about what I will wear to hang out with my friends in hopes people will think I'm soooooo stylish, and more time thinking about how I can love my friends and enjoy their company.

I don't know how this will look or what it means exactly, but I felt the need to share.

Here is a video that has been on my mind lately-because it's super fun and awesome but also celebrates a body that 'aint no size 2!'  Let's get real, and celebrate our inner beauty... and our love for fashion, but try to love who we are right now.

Every inch of you is perfect, from the bottom to the top!  Thanks for reading :)

xoxo Heidi